Light of The Life

Assalamualaikum WBT. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Tuhanku, atas nikmat 'Sebuah Perjalanan' yang sungguh berharga, atas semua nikmat kurniaanMu di sepanjang perjalanan ini, ada yang aku ketahui ada yang tidak aku ketahui, ampunkanlah hambaMu yang penuh dengan khilaf ini, ada yang aku syukuri ada yang gagal aku syukuri. ampunkanlah hambaMu yang sering lupa ini. Aku dapati di sepanjang perjalanan ini , saat aku semakin jauh dariMu, semakin sukar hidup yg aku lalui, namun saat aku kembali dekat denganMu, sekelip mata hidup menjadi mudah, cabaran tetap ada tapi ianya menjadi lebih mudah di hadapi, dan nikmatMu akan terus datang mengetuk pintu, pada waktu yang x di sangka, melalui jalan yang x di sangka-sangka. Dalam perjalanan ini, mungkin aku belum menjadi seperti yang aku impikan, namun aku telah beri yang terbaik dalam kapasiti yang aku mampu saat ini, maka akan ku teruskan mengatur langkah satu persatu, berbekalkan ilmu yang ku kutip...

Farewell 2019 For a new door to open You must close the old door.  For a new day to arrive You must let go of the old days. Goodbye past It’s time to live in the present.  Goodbye mistakes  It’s time to collect the lessons. Goodbye guilt It’s time for forgiveness. Goodbye sad It’s time for happiness. Goodbye if It’s time for will (InshaaAllah). Goodbye wish It’s time to make it happen. Goodbye later It’s time to act now  and keep going. Goodbye fear It’s time to show courage and embrace the challenge. Goodbye dark night It’s time to let the sun shines. Goodbye comfort zone It’s time to fly higher. Let the memories remain For bad memory is a teacher to guide you For good memory is a friend to cheer you up Let bitterness be the medicine  Let time be the healer Let hikmah be the comfort  Remember, ever...

Assalamualaikum WBT... Alhamdulillah, after countless of time ignoring the whispers in my heart telling me to write, here I am now, writing up my thoughts. As I said before "Reading is like breathing in and writing is like breathing out". And before I suffocate myself, I should breath out to let more air in.  Alhamdulillah, I am still alive, I am still breathing. I think I am witnessing myself transformed a little for the better, I hope. May Allah makes it easier for us to be a better servant each day. Insha-Allah. Now, rather than punishing myself for my mistakes, I am more understanding, more forgiving to myself and focus more on the solution; on how to stand up again and be better each time. It may sound easy for some of you, but that is the most difficult thing for someone who has been struggling to manage their perfectionism which often backslashes. It took me years to accept the fact that I have that toxic perfectionism in me sometimes. But being understand...

It’s November 12th, 2019. I am now a 4th year PhD student. Since the past few days, weeks, and months, I knew that something was not right with me. But I keep ignoring that, trying to stay positive by telling myself “I am OK, I am fine, I can get through this”. I thought if I keep saying that to myself, someday everything will be fine, and I would be healed. It’s only a matter of time. But, that is just temporary and isn't the solution. I ought to find a better solution. Only today I learned that there are two types of positive thinking after listening to Aiman Azlan feat Aida Azlin’s podcast. I was in the first group of positivity. I guess it's time to change to the second group, a true positivity! The first type is being positive by ignoring the negative thoughts and dismissing your emotion. You feel sad, but instead of accepting the feeling and acknowledging the feeling, you keep telling yourself “I am good, I am fine”. Being positive this way isn’t solving the main pro...

Assalamualaikum... It's been a month since my last entry. I could hardly breathe in the past few weeks. My life was quite eventful. Alhamdulillah, at least I have lists of things to do, I have something to look forward rather than waking up in the morning feeling clueless and hopeless, not knowing what to do, where to go... Yes, I fell into the trap again, I failed to react calmly... I still struggling to keep my complicated mind optimist and calm. Why? I guess because there are plenty of things in life I didn't understand and importantly I still not fully know myself. Why? Because in life we constantly facing unique-different circumstances, and each time, there is always something new to learn. That's why people say, learning is a lifelong journey. That time, I am facing things that I haven't fully understand and thus not properly and strongly build in myself. So, don't get disappointed too much if you get shaken or if your reaction was a bit off when facing a ...

Assalamualaikum WBT. Alhamdulillah hari ini di beri kesempatan untuk menulis di ruangan ini setelah lebih sebulan tinggal. Hari ni rasa nak tulis secara santai sikit. Kali ini pilih tajuk 'So Many Hands' sebab setiap kali dengar lagu ni, rasa sangat berkait dengan perjalanan hidup sejak beberapa tahun ini. Apa yang aku faham, lagu ini menggambarkan keinginan yang sangat tinggi untuk mencapai impian walau sesukar mana walau pelbagai cabaran datang dengan hadirnya ramai insan-insan disekeliling yang membantu kearah impian itu.  So Many Hands Mia Palencia Hear... At the edge of the morning A nation is rising And we see the fight Hear... At the edge of the morning The shadow is fading And I see the light Hmm... hmm... Hear... We just like a river Tradition runs deep and future unclear As the whole world is watching Voices are singing Does anyone hear? Ohhhh. Ohhh... I want to be stronger I want to burn brighter than I eve...

Assalamualaikum WBT... Alhamdulillah Allah masih beri kesempatan waktu, dibukakan mata hati untuk melihat, dan diilhamkan untuk berfikir dan reflek. Dah habis dah cuti musim panas 2 bulan.  How does that affect me? My two routines were also stopped during the summer break; my Tuesday Tafsir class with Syaikh Marwan and my Sunday KAFA class at SOFA College London. I didn't realize how important these two things for me until we had the summer break. I feel an emptiness in my heart that slowly dragged me away from the straight path. I realized the importance of istiqamah in whatever you do. You will not see as much impact if you only do things one-off, it doesn't work that way. If you want to the impact in whatever you do, you need to at least constantly doing it for 3 months. Then you will see the impact, how it slowly changing your life. Alhamdulillah, it's not easy and I must admit I was forced to do it at the beginning, but with time I naturally longing for it...

It's fascinating how Allah lets us choose and design our own life while keeping us in the best and straight path. This world is so full of choices... we can choose to live in a different world from time to time, from bottom to the higher-up's world. Isn't it amazing when Allah protect our heart, we don't feel the gap nor the difference.. both worlds are equally good. Even though we are living in a different world, we can still learn the same values, but of course, it dictates a different story. We just got to live in the present moment, embrace every challenge, and continue to think good of Allah SWT and trust His time. 10.09.2019: Malaysia's National Day @ High Commission for Malaysia  Song: Moments by Christopher Please don't say a word 'Cause they all have been said now Like a journey coming to an end You say let it run like the river Wild and without a care just like the days we were young and fumbling Everyth...

The following tips are given by Uncle Yunus every time a student in Malaysages is preparing for Viva. 22.06.2018 & 01.03.2019 Stages of questions that will be asked during Viva General, key content of your thesis (concept). They will go deeper into the thesis. Speculative questions - outside your thesis but related which you could use your thesis to answer those questions. Try to find the connection (You need to have enough knowledge of the related field to your thesis). Conclusion - How you reach to this point and what is this for future? What the examiners want from you First 30 minutes, the examiners will observe your personality. The ability to investigate deeper in your subject. Keep asking yourself - how, when, why, where. Elaborate precisely the cause and effect. Let them challenge you on things you know. Self-preparations: Your brain needs 3 hours to wake up. Have plenty of time before Viva. Have a good sleep.  Rehearsed and review concept...

The Uncle, The Atuk, The Greatest Teacher He who made me believe in myself, and helped me reclaim my self-confidence. He who made me stand up for what I want, and encouraged me to dream big. He who introduced me the word 'Wisdom', and taught me how to acquire it. He acknowledged my strengths more than I do. He reminded me to be a good person, not just rich and intelligent. He spotted my weaknesses when I was clueless about it. He patiently and endlessly corrected my repeated mistakes, and that was the best gift in my self-betterment journey.  You were always there, guided my overthinking mind,  answered my philosophical questions. You s hared about life and love, while eating Mee Rebus , like an Atuk giving precious advice to his cucu. Your warm 'Hello!' and 'Bye!' on the phone, will sincerely be missed. Your words of great wisdom, will forever be remembered. Your final word to me  will be my strength to...