My Baby Steps Into Cardiac & MRI World. Will I Explore The Best in Me Here?

Assalamualaikum WBT..

Tiba-tiba teringat pula lagu ni, jom layan dulu lagu evergreen ni:

Standing in the Eyes of The World

Pahit getir hidup...Dan pengorbanan

Terpaksa dihadapi,Demi kejayaan

Terdidik sejak mula,Tabah berusaha

Tanpa cuba melangkah,Tak kemana

Di mana kau berada

Pencapaian tak tiba dengan mudah

Kini "Standing In The Eyes Of The World"

Hanyalah selangkah dari nyata

Keazaman membara dijiwa

Menanti saat bebas merdeka

Tiba masa kau melangkah gagah

Bersemangat ke arah matlamat sedaya upaya

Engkau terunggul

Wajar "Standing In The Eyes Of The World"

Harapan yang pernah terkulai layu

Kembali segar mekar bawah bayanganmu

Setiap manusia ingin berjaya

Namun tak semua miliki tuah

Engkau menghampirinya

Kesempatan telah  telah pun tiba
Kini "Standing In The Eyes Of The World"
Hanyalah selangkah dari nyata
Keazaman membara dijiwa
Menanti saat bebas merdeka
Tiba masa kau melangkah gagah
Bersemangat ke arah matlamat sedaya upaya
Engkau terunggul
Wajar "Standing In The Eyes Of The World"

~ Ella ~

Alhamdulillah..jari-jari ini kembali mencoret kisah setelah sebulan bercuti dari laman ni. Hari ini, genap seminggu aku bermusafir di bumi Canada. Syukur nikmat Allah dapat menjejakkan kaki di negara yang telah lama diimipikan. I have special interest with this country, since I love the Maple leaf very much and I admire the Prime Minister Justin Trudeau and also because of Goblin ;)

Sekarang sudah masuk 13 Ramadhan 1440. MaashaaAllah, pantasnya masa berlalu. Teringat tahun lepas, mula-mula aku refuse untuk hantar abstract sebab konferens ni bulan puasa dan akan berlangsung di negara yang asing buat aku. Aku ada sedikit kerisauan macam nak sahur nanti? Aku ni dah la perut cerewet sikit kan, nak kena puasa dekat 17 jam pula, mampukah aku? Dalam sibuk dilema dan kelam kabut siapkan data, akhirnya sempat juga siap data collection 3 hari sebelum deadline, sehari analysis, sehari write-up abstract, dan on the deadline day buat correction dengan supervisor, pukul 9 mlm selamat submit abstract ke ISMRM19 :) That's the story behind my abstract that was then accepted for oral presentation in a combined educational & scientific session; cell tracking & molecular imaging and also being listed as one of the recipients of Magna cum laude awards ISMRM19. Alhamdulillah..moral of the story, you never know what the future holds. 

"Allah SWT punya perancangan yang terbaik untuk kita, apa yang penting adalah kita sentiasa berusaha dan buat yang terbaik dalam setiap urusan kita. Let the output be in Allah's hands".

Ya betul, bukan mudah nak hadam hakikat ni dan jadikan ia sebati dalam diri kita. Namun hakikat inilah yang perlu kita pegang dan jadikan salah satu prinsip hidup kita. 

Alhamdulillah, dapat oral presentation at ISMRM merupakan suatu titik penting buat aku. It marks both my personal and work achievements. Personally, it's a self-validation that I am doing fine since the past 5 years, it's proof that I am not dreaming, I am actually part of the Cardiac MRI field. I always doubt myself, can I really handle this field? Is it suitable for me? Can I carry the weight of being in this field? What will happen after I finish the PhD? Will I be staying in this field or will I be slowly wipe out?

ISMRM19: Cell Tracking and Molecular Imaging: Educational and Scientific Session

15 May 2019: Post Presentation

On the other hand, it's a recognition that my work is as good as others in the field. I always wonder, where is the place of my work in this field? Is this work contribute to the development of knowledge in the field? or I am just doing this work for the sake of finishing my PhD? But, being awarded Magna cum laude awards means a lot to me. It shows that I am not doing research 'syok sendiri' ;) Alhamdulillah.. 

So I said to myself, "yes let's do this yati, this marks the beginning of my baby steps towards Cardiac MRI field. Let this be our 1st step and will continue moving forward and no more doubts. Let's strive and do our best!"

That's means a lot to me for saying that. It took me a while to properly think about that decision and require a lot of courage to accept that reality.

With that "Bismillah..let the journey begins.. Insha-Allah..may Allah ease our path"

Nur

Train Quebec City to Montreal
18/05/2019
16:08